My authenticity or uniqueness is in who I Am. All I need is myself. Then, I can find a balance in my interests and express how the other party crossed my boundaries. A coworker, Cedric, told me the meaning of “I,” and that nothing else can redefine my existence or worth.
Embracing Uniqueness: Finding Balance and Celebrating the Journey
Similarly, I want to be mine; nobody else can have me. Sometimes, I create the art. No three hands are ever alike. I desire to focus my creative flow on the 12 favorite problems. As I told myself, I could stand out by focusing on what was vital to me.
In CoDA, Promise Five speaks about recognizing and embracing the importance of uniqueness.
“I know a new love and acceptance of myself and others. I feel genuinely lovable, loving, and loved.”
Celebrate the Joy in the Journey: Recover with Color! A recommendation from the CoDA group. I haven’t tried it myself. However, I run an art Meetup and occasionally draw with them.
Story Time: Denial when I see a person racing behind me ✨
Following that great energy, I can come to know Promise Six and recognize others as equal to myself. Only after accepting myself can I do what is needed to make my energy vibe attractive, whether it’s a drawing artist date or a 23-minute walk near the Canal. Many times during the month, I find myself meditating in the evening or morning when I’m working from home. I am responsible for feeding my energy and finding the balance to keep me going. Otherwise, I will choose fear and denial patterns.
Some time ago, I saw a person racing behind me. I tried to go faster and felt a feeling of strength. I wanted to control the situation; I didn’t want them to beat me. In the past, it happened to me when people behind me were racing. I remember when I had a cyclist going fast on the boardwalk racing behind me. I decided to try to keep up by running like a crazy person, only to learn that I would fail.
Later, I learned that I was experiencing a trigger of not being good enough and stressing over my situation. I have difficulty identifying my feelings. In CoDA, that is the denial pattern. Of course, I can argue that it could be a control issue here, but I’m not sure which. I was running to get fit and somehow have clarity when all I needed was to stop and slow down.
The end is the beginning; it’s great to have you here. Feel free to leave any thoughts or realizations. Peace be with you. 💖
While working on the 40 questions with a CoDA study group, I came up with an exciting suggestion. The idea is to create a “Self-Care Kit,” then insert loving messages and learn to love myself unconditionally. Then I thought, how do I learn to love myself unconditionally over time? I created a PDF for myself to help me move towards that goal. The PDF comes packed with prompts to align with CoDA recovery.
If you’re interested in purchasing the tool for yourself, you can buy it for $2 to find success in learning to love yourself unconditionally. Feel free to scroll to the bottom to purchase. I encourage you to share it with your loved ones so everybody can find the love. If you find the love, please let me know how the tool helped you improve.
6 powerful affirmations Loving Messages and Self-Care
Message come with elaboration to get you started on recovery.
I keep my schedule open, so I have balance in my life.
I Am ~ Certify my existence ~ I Exist, I belong.
I Am Worth it ~ How many times throughout the day I’m hit with tasks and thoughts of not being enough for myself-love?
I justify my Worth Because I Exist.
Perhaps I Can Slow Down
I have difficult conversations with my friends, and while I am chill.
Focus on my blessings when the balance is at risk
Keep a close eye on when I’m lonely and turn victim on my subway commute.
I’m lost when I notice my attention moving away from me to objects, places, or people.
Similar to the idea that meditation can help calm the mind.
I can move my body to feel better when I focus on blessings. The body does its best to maintain balance. All I need to do is tune into its song.
I need sleep so I can think through my interactions.
Below is a Codependent Pattern Template. To use the template, associate it with the codependent person with a pattern. You can use the CoDA step 4 inventory to help you fill it out.
“Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.”
As you fill out your Codependent Patterns, I included prompts to help you write your ideas.
Welcome to meaningful connection, where I share July resonating ideas, thoughts, and realizations for those who want to grow mindfully in 7 mins. I will try to answer the following questions: let me know how I do. Meanwhile, see if you can find the answer.
“What would a miraculous change in your own life look like overall?
“If we just smile to it, it will lose much of its strength. Mindfulness is the energy that allows us to recognize our habit energy and prevent it from dominating us.”
“How could you personally make a DISHONEST effort to working the Steps and Traditions?”
“What are your personal Barriers to Success in working the Twelve Steps and Traditions?
Watch me try to summarize the above paragraph; it’s hilarious!
👓 What’s New?
I focused on my CoDA studies during August, explicitly covering the 12 promises. Meanwhile, I sincerely wanted to start practicing my driving skills to avoid depending on others to get me to a location. While in Brooklyn, I could attend a block party and try to be social while not needing a car. Finally, misuse of senses.
🔔 What is Resonating?
During August, I chose something that I rated a high rating of 4 Vye’s! While I had the bell ringing, I decided the 📥 A Study of the 12 Promises PRELUDE.
“PRELUDE: I can expect a miraculous change in my life by working the program of Co-Dependents Anonymous. As I make an honest effort to work the Twelve Steps and follow the Twelve Traditions.”
As I answered the three questions, I decided it would be helpful to share my answers.
“What would a miraculous change in your own life look like overall? Remember, the miraculous change that we are seeking is in ourselves, not others. Consider changes to your thoughts, emotions and actions.”
Change in my life free of seeking happiness from the outside objects/persons. Meditation has helped me pause and gain insight. Remembering to smile helps me disengage the negative thoughts. It’s from the book The Heart of the Buddha’s Teaching.
“If we just smile to it, it will lose much of its strength. Mindfulness is the energy that allows us to recognize our habit energy and prevent it from dominating us.”
Similarly, in the book The Secret, I can position my thoughts for positive, attractive energy.
“How could you personally make a DISHONEST effort to working the Steps and Traditions?”
For me, the dishonest effort is not reviewing my faults and aligning them with the steps or traditions. Especially before sharing, I should write down exactly which pattern I need to prevent, especially when it hits on the topic of 💭 Running into the Fire the Desire to Expand. Another way of thinking is asking what if I’m a workaholic and overworking/overthinking?
In Buddha’s teaching, the first Nobel Truth speaks on recognizing the suffering, in my case, the unmanageability. Then, seeing the energy moving all the time, I love working on the issues at the moment and learning from experience and, in other words, reflecting on a moving train and treating it like a game. Telling others what to do is different from the right path. It is best practice for me to have them ask. I’m not good at this truth yet, but I want to recognize the suffering and adjust.
“What are your personal Barriers to Success in working the Twelve Steps and Traditions? (time, space, other people, responsibilities, finances, housing, education, employment, transportation, other interests, etc.)”
For me, it’s not enjoying self-love, spending too much time being productive, worrying about nutrition, and not being good enough. Essentially, 💭 Running into the Fire the Desire to Expand. Examples include not going to bed on time or setting up boundaries with me or others. Meanwhile, I forget my self-worth altogether.
While answering these questions, I started listing out some tools for recovery. I will continue to use The Healing Code while I pray/meditate to break through the wheel of suffering.
Moving away from CoDA, I craved loving kindness for myself in the past. I wished for the ability to drive a car and needed ways to afford it. Then I found 📥 10 CHEAP RENTAL CAR HACKS That Will Save You Money. The title is super clickbait, but I needed to research that area. On a lighter note, The Deal Guy tells me to pay attention to the following points.
For August, I will choose a topic sprouting #note/🌱 that needs to be elaborated upon further. The thought I decided was 💭 Visiting a friend at the block party. I remember feeling overwhelmed and feelings of weakness. I felt that way because, at the block party, I couldn’t but feel not good enough. I was not doing enough. I spent money on charcoal and party plastic cups. However, I hate plastic waste and I felt terrible about myself. I also have anxiety about talking to others, putting pressure on my friend to help me through the day, and cooking to get my mind off it. I don’t know it was hard. After all the hard work, I met a girl, but I don’t know if she’s real.
Then I thought to myself – Why do you expect others to complete me?
Block parties are wasteful, unsustainable, loud, and confusing. I had a lot of frustrations because I didn’t understand what I needed to do there to help my friend. And also, I put myself into a position with many people. Very uncomfortable. I don’t know if I want to do this again. Then, all I thought about was running errands, not making friends. My experience led me to learn I need to find a way to practice doing small talk in large group gatherings.
I could have done better; feel free to add your thoughts. If not, let’s see what’s going on in mental nourishment.
🥑 Mental Nourishment
Throughout August, I had many thoughts focused on the mind, and Buddhism. The first runner-up is 💭 Misuse of senses. I remember feeling concerned, dirty, sad, and curious feelings. I felt that way because at night I overslept and had my mom’s birthday party. Some of my happiness was coming from dating apps. I allowed it to get to my pleasure senses, then positioned my mind to get some pleasure from adult sites. I deserve to see the pictures of what it looks like and explore. Later on, I went on Google, and I came across a Reddit post. The post taught me that I need to practice the four noble truths. In particular, refrain from the misuse of the senses. For example, I should not look at people lustfully or commit adultery. In a Reddit post, somebody mentioned the following.
“Middle way would be * in moderation and without * as long as you are not a Buddhist monk.”
Meanwhile, I couldn’t help but make the connection to the CoDA Denial Pattern – I didn’t acknowledge my feelings and let them go. Instead, I allowed myself to numb out. My plan for the future is to continue to meditate to notice my strong negative feelings and desire for self-care while asking the question of what little things I can do to help my mind be at ease.
In the same vein, 💭 after Saturday meet-up. I remember feeling sadness. I felt that way because of dating apps. Then I got impatient that I was alone and didn’t meet anybody. Then I thought about eating a lot of sweets at night. Also, I came home to an empty apartment again. My feelings of negative pressure were overwhelming. Later, I looked at the thoughts in Buddhism and the attributes I must learn. I concluded that I needed to review the previous learnings in the other thought note and recognize that I was in a denial pattern.
I had many other thoughts; that insight keeps me focused. Feel free to let me know your thoughts. Otherwise, let’s keep on trucking to the stream of consciousness.
🚿 Stream of Consciousness
I am trying to untangle myself from useless, free, unpaid dating apps that don’t bring any women back but experience. I’m stuck in fear mode and adhering to the zodiac signs to choose the love of my life. Last year, I met that person and somebody who broke my heart and lied to me about their feelings. Many times, I try to forgive her in my heart.
My body craves love, and I don’t know why I can’t give myself enough. A part of me wants to run away and experience life more, and the responsible me is like your crazy. Your family is nearby, and what will you do with your job? It’s so frustrating. I worked at my post for ten years, and I cannot take a sabbatical to reestablish what the heck is my life’s purpose. My goal was to find some farming internships and gain some life experience. I could even start my farm near the mountains to go skiing while enjoying the fresh mountain air. I want to taste that life, but I don’t know how.
Well, that’s pretty much it for August, let’s see what Mr. AI Assistant tells me to do.
✨AI Assistant
Had told me I need to work on the following. What do you all think?
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✨ I’m pretty happy with what I’m doing now. What am I doing? I was creating a #sketch and #Blender and decided to draw over the #gray box. Let’s go back to #Krita and it came out. Really cool but I like the little #Minecraft look and feel.
Welcome to meaningful connection, where I share April’s resonating ideas, thoughts, and realizations for those who want to grow mindfully.
Meaningful Connection
👓 What’s New?
Well, ever since I stopped journaling my achievements and switched to more of what’s fresh on the plate, I had to be more creative. As of late, I am a fantastic cook. I can make Kimchi, Golden Liquid with fermented rice. I love the sour, hot spicy, rich, flavored kimchi mixed with crispy veggies. I’m learning a ton about nutrition and glad to find that the knowledge is quickly becoming wisdom. When I dated my previous ex, her mother was a witch doctor in Chinese cooking. Since I love the environment so much, I have a strong affinity for that passion.
Meanwhile, my most significant achievement is learning how to flip food while sautéing. I love it cos it adds so much joy to my morning breakfast. While sauteing, I feel the excitement while the food lands back on the pan. Moving off from the cooking vibe, I recently spruced up my YouTube channel branding. I’m thinking about reading my blog posts. I know of a blogger who had some success in doing so. Anyhow, let’s move into resonating thoughts.
🔔 What is resonating?
During April, I recently touched CoDA, the making choices book. Before jumping into the reading, CoDA stands for Co-Dependents Anonymous—a place for healing relationships and seeking a healthy mindset. In comparison, I was explicitly creating my affirmations. While searching for what changed, I came across a question. How can I include my feelings while thinking about my obstacles? It was clever to have my Higher Power because my feelings could link to my ideas. Pausing is something hard for me. The thought universe as I grow and question what is happening in my mind. I come to realize that I have a choice. The ability to reflect on my actions and learn. Nothing new; what’s special? Well, if I feel my feelings and don’t shove them away. I can link them to other events in my life. Then create a strong bond and grow. Therefore, if I bring my boundaries and goals into the picture and will come to know my Higher Power.
🌻 What’s Growing?
As April rages on, my greenhouse continues to receive fresh herbs. Recently while moving my obsidian vault, I discovered that Windows likes to hide folders. I was trying to clone my repository, and it would fail to connect. Later I realized that I had to move the hidden git folder, which tells GitHub what to fetch. Therefore, it was time to amend my readme file and add some documentation to troubleshoot that problem out of existence.
Nevertheless, compared to another note, I discovered a reflection with the following question. What are some things I realized when I got mature? I came across the question on a dating community. However, what’s interesting is becoming an adult, accepting things for what they are, and not trying to control them. I felt strong because I’m in CoDA, so I know it’s a process that comes and goes. In other words, progress and not perfection.
Meanwhile, I learned that I must care for my basic needs to see any progress. Therefore, I continue seeking inspiration from CoDA Community and my soul coach and therapist sessions. Thus, I’m going to move on to the nourishment part next.
🥑 Mental Nourishment
As I strapped myself in for the mental nourishment, I understood a new combined threat. I feel fear while writing those words, and I need to find a way to remove or create a new section. It was a good idea to combine this section with the above. I will have to find a way to avoid duplication. However, I will focus on something other than tackling that issue right now. I love the note on what I found attractive in my women. I was dating Jul last year, and I made a list. As I was making the list, I felt delighted and had a strong love for her. I love that she has jet black hair, traveling vibes, a body shape that is so huggable, helpful when I’m not feeling good, fun facial expressions, easygoing, and recharges me when I spend time with her. While I miss her so much and wish she was in my life forever, I did get to explore the person who would give me the kind of love I desire. The plan is to seek a personality that makes me feel good about being me. Let’s move toward the end of the fun in the consciousness section.
🚿 Stream of Consciousness
For the close of April, I’m seeking to learn to cook my remaining scraps while being environmentally balanced. Every weekend, I pushed myself to the brink of breaking because I overpack my schedule and don’t give myself enough room for spiritual maintenance. I’m always thinking about fixing or tweaking something for the better, such as utilizing my resources in the Obsidian. However, I found a small silver lining during my sleeping hour. I started praying my 30 points around my stomach while connecting with my Higher Power. As soon as I start channeling the Healing Code, I immediately repair issues of the heart, which brings me deeper sleep and a bright future ahead.
Sidebar, I’m planning to live stream while I try to read my blog post. So, feel free to jump in if it starts or catch the highlights later attached to this blog post. Also, below is my latest creation from Japanese folklore – Kasa Jizou.
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Welcome to meaningful connection, where I share March resonating ideas, thoughts, and realizations.
Meaningful Connection
👓 What’s New?
A significant departure from my notes, I decided to pause on the reviews and focus my energy on what’s resonating, feelings, and thoughts. I want to continue refining my discoveries to build meaningful connections with the content I consume. I made the subconscious choice because I needed to do something more vital with the content. Moreso, it took a lot of copy-pasting and tweaking queries throughout the week to get my monthly review together. After that, I plan to revisit the thoughts and morning pages. In addition, I’m practicing the CE 5 Protocol and Healing Code, which calms my soul and provides growth.
I listened to Mary and Ken talk in CoDA UK for steps 8 and 9 (https://codauk.org/ken-and-mary-2019/). I remember being avoidant with my family and letting my authority figure of fear control me. Then the discovery about my childhood interaction with others left me wondering: What do amends look like for me? Because for the longest time, I had blamed the outside world for my feelings. It has left me seeking balance and wisdom. I will find balance through continuously journaling and reflecting on the areas of my interest. In particular, it’s good for me to monitor my physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual health.
Forgetting to pray and pause is a common theme in my life. I quickly get excited about cooking. When I cook and try to improve my health, I spend copious hours understanding and implementing ideas. Where is the pause button? Mary and Ken discuss the concept of chasing for an answer. Am I in a place to hear the truth? For much of my life, I shut those thoughts off subconsciously and feared the reality of the situation. In CoDA, its a progress and not perfection. I found a small silver lining, praying and hanging signs to remind me to pause. It’s okay not to know myself at the very moment and to be lost. For now, I will find myself soon. It is remembering that I cannot always let fear be my authority figure.
Fear is a figure that blows through my boundaries, not a loving Higher Power who wants the best for me. I could skip filling my plate with complete nutrition or leave a few dishes in the sink. Overall, the problem I aim to solve is moving from a position of weakness to a more balanced lifestyle. Meanwhile, I know I cannot control and blame others but improve myself.
🌻 What’s Growing?
For the month, I will choose something that is sprouting and needs to be elaborated upon further. The most exciting thing to guide the mind will be questions that require complex answers. Questions have many answers too. Some time ago, I started collecting my top 12 favorite problems to find solutions. It will guide me to search for information instead of mindlessly highlighting everything I see on the interwebs. Feynman coined the idea to chip away at challenging issues in life.
The plan is to continue questioning the content I consume and testing it against the question. The problems that come from life very well reflect my core values. For example, if I want to expand my ability to show kindness to others, I must ask the following question. How can I find balance while having the desire to grow? Which lead me to CoDA step 4 and 5. I must keep an inventory of my actions toward others and promptly admit when I’m wrong so I can reflect and grow as a human being to society.
🥑 Mental Nourishment
Throughout March, I had many thoughts that differed from my objective notes. However, most of the time, the feeling is inspired. I plan to find a better way to resurface those feelings in my notes, but I’m going based on what I can dig out by modified time.
Speaking to my friend about dating, he made a connection to resumes. The profile is like a highlight of the best version of myself. After I meet the person, I can further elaborate on my vulnerability, weakness, and plans for the future. He mentioned that it is essential to maintain my anonymity for purposes of equality. Until I know them and they are “safe” to share with, I might want to keep parts of me hidden.
For example, perhaps it wouldn’t be a good idea to share my past trauma. 🤷🏻♀️ I’m proud of my journey personally, but I’ve noticed certain words trigger a misunderstanding (like codependent), so I leave them out. Further into the future, my grandmother told me that couples rub off each other over a while and learn what love entails. In other words, I can understand love when I sense the inner suffering of my better half.
I plan to validate my life with what I love to do to attract the correct type of energy.
🚿 Stream of Consciousness
As March passed, I started doing fewer daily, weekly, and monthly reviews. My therapist suggests I focus my energy only on gratitude and feeling my feelings. I decided to change because I felt overwhelmed with my desire to cook in the keto lifestyle. Since my weekends include art, shopping, and cooking, I want to involve myself spiritually and take more vacations during the week, so my life goes smoother.
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Welcome to #meaningful #connection, where I share #resonating ideas, thoughts, and realizations from my month of December.
👓 What’s New?
During December, my most significant personal achievement was the Development of 💭 For the love of the spirit of affirmations. Because It might help me further develop my mind. The idea is to combine obstacles, feelings, affirmation, gratitude for myself, and a connection to my higher power. In doing so, I can remember to do better with my triggers. For example, I used to have a habit of eating and watching a show in the morning, and I removed it. To do so, I journaled my feelings of unhappiness and then spoke my affirmation. The affirmation I use is, “I keep my schedule open, so I have balance in my life.” Then I would pray to ⛰️ My Higher Power and combine that with gratitude to focus on the positive. For example, I would say I am inspecting my thoughts closely and try proving to myself that I can be a happy person and have ways to do that. Aside from that, I had many other accomplishments, but I want to zero in on my career next.
Also, my most significant career achievement in December was completing an offline app feature for a large angular app. While working on the item, getting a coworker’s input is vital to spot many logic issues. Unfortunately, the part is hard to fix, and I must get more eyes on it so the team can succeed.
In other news, my productivity was getting better because I started my bedtime routine at 9:30 pm almost every day, which gave me the ability to have more capacity during the day and process my expanding desire to learn. Also, giving up watching shows while eating helped me pause and reflect. It allowed me to work on my projects.
In late November, I started drawing holiday cards project for my family and was able to complete everything before the new year. However, it took longer than expected, and I passed my deadline by a week. Nevertheless, I finished eight-holiday cards, all hand drawn.
While the project went well, I learned a few things throughout the weeks. For example, one valuable lesson was that I only need to take on challenges in the morning once I finish my breakfast. Otherwise, I get frustrated or upset, which can cause stomach issues. Also, dont eat and watch shows because that will cause problems with how much I eat and how I feel afterward.
🔔 What is resonating?
During December, my goal is to choose an input that is in finished status or has some juice to share. Of such caliber, I found a meeting that occurred on 18 December from CoDA. We covered the pamphlet The Making Choices Book and read the section Create your Affirmations. I learned that affirmations are powerful when using them for a goal. Such as, I want to manifest the type of person I want to be, like Honesty Core Value. However, the best part about the reading was the following point.
We put them into positive language. In other words, “I am a valuable person” is more affirming than “I’m not worthless.”
The Making Choices Book
To create affirmations, I can refer to my obstacles to create positive language. All in all, It gives me a target or goal that I can plan objectively.
🌻 What’s Growing?
For December, I will choose a mature idea I developed in my incubator. Looking at my list, I have yet to have the time to work on anything new. However, I noticed my note on How to organize and process a quick capture log. In that note, I have a line saying to use the fleeting notes app, but as of late, I moved my fleeting notes to Google Keep and embedded them inside Obsidian. I aim to use the notes to inspire further inspection of ideas and build new concepts. Using Google Keep is super easy and always available on my phone. One critical issue that has affected me was the inability to keep up with my fleeting notes. The idea is to process them at the end of the day or so, but I noticed that they tend to sit for a long time before they get off that list. I will follow up if I find a clever way to process them.
🥑 Mental Nourishment
Meanwhile, as of December, I had many thoughts that differed from the notes of the objective Zettelkasten. I am still figuring out how to choose which notes I should share. I need to link it up with a rating system. Earlier I spoke about 🗺️ Feelings MOC. The idea is to get an overall sense of what’s happening each month, and I’m not sure how to get those results yet. I plan to use the influx plugin, check the highest feeling and see what thoughts connect to it. Starting from today, the surface with the most hits was happiness. Therefore I will choose one and talk about it briefly.
In particular, my ex asked me what a relationship means to you. The following list came about:
Living together, we will come to know
I felt happy cos she wanted to move to the next step.
When I get upset, she won’t get triggered and will wait for me to work through it
I feel safe sharing my emotions
Helping each other during tough times
A relationship needs commitment
I don’t believe in marriage, but if we must, if our finance is too far apart, then a prenup is in order.
We are Patient
Active/Sports/Walks/Travel
Great in bed
Doesn’t make me worry
Clear Zodiac Signs
Respect, and be a glass half empty before fear. I briefly reviewed the first tradition and noticed that the relationship is more vital than a focus on self.
🚿 Stream of Consciousness
Anyway, going to wrap up the month. I had struggled with my balance, and now ex. Next time I get into a relationship with somebody who is international, I will state the requirement of a prenup or be financially similar to me. Also can move to the United States without any issues from my family. Working out these problems while being four months into the whole thing is a lot of emotional baggage. My biggest thing is trust is earned and not freely given. So many don’t understand that fact. Money is no exception. Divorce is at an all-time high and is hard to go based on the word. Human emotions tend to be erratic. People change once they move to a new country, family, or person they love. I’m so tired of proving my worth to partners. Moreso, my gut was telling me that I was not comfortable with the whole arrangement, and I was about to give the gift of citizenship and perhaps a better life in America.
Welcome to meaningful connection, where I share resonating ideas, thoughts, and realizations from my month.
👓 What’s New?
The first week, I got the booster shot, then continued fasting and added nuts to my diet cos I was losing too much weight. Obsidian sync with plugins was bugging me, so I turned it off. Later that week, I spoke to my girl about marriage. I’m cooking much faster with dirty Keto.
The second week, I was hiking at Cold Spring and looked at Accessibility by PayPal. Fasting and working while hiking. Fall age is in full swing. My girl wasn’t candid with her feelings about a prenup. In a different vein, I ended up not going to Terry Town cos of the rain. Vet Day, get the day to be home. Shopping at an art meetup was fun with so many folks at Bryant park because it felt festive.
In the third week, I booked some vacation time with a friend. Keto is better for the cells to adapt. Also, my emotions are in training for the new diet. I started using Cronometer to track my meals to get an idea of how my meals run. The carbs are high. I didn’t know SI had unique hiking places, such as Greenbelt. But the food wasn’t as good, and the soup gave me a stomach ache. The weekend went by fast, decided to spend some time with my parents and cook some meals. A bit worried about my dad’s chest pain. Then I realized that I shouldn’t eat unless hungry might not apply to chia seeds.
During the final week, an unexpected Verizon bill caught me off guard. Finally, Keto is off; it could be carbs or the chia seeds making me less hungry. I am making good progress on the wizard at work. I spoke to my brother during the thanksgiving party. Not only that, but I talked to a friend and made some great fish. I attended an art meetup but felt tired at the end of the day with a headache. Likewise, I was cooking and cleaning as usual on Sunday. Furthermore, I enjoy talking to my girl, and we usually speak well.
Biggest Personal Achievement
I was hiking on my own at Bryant Park.
Biggest Career Achievement
Accessibility discovery PayPal or getting better at UI/UX
My Learnings
One valuable lesson is that I can only run well with sleep.
Next month I will improve on eating only, but not watching TV shows.
I will try to stop eating chia seeds in the morning unless I’m doing a long fast.
I Learned that I hid behind games, food, and shows.
STR journaling as a reflection
Hope is that affirmations like the following will resurface
“We may have avoided life with the help of mood-altering substances such as drugs, alcohol, and food.”
“We came to see our codependent characteristics as our strategies for coping with the overwhelming stress and trauma we experienced in childhood.”
How does this apply to my recovery?
I only sometimes take my time and give myself headspace. That’s when trouble starts.
Again, if it happens, then I pause and reflect. Try to channel the negative energy out. What can I do to cheer myself up?
Then I went for a walk and spent the time near the water.
When affirmations are said, Feeling my Feelings and what cognitive Distortion comes up and how I can reflect.
Mantra to repeat
Circles of life
🌻 What’s Growing?
For the month, I will choose a mature idea I developed in my incubator. Organize and Process Quick Capture Log is a great place to start because it covers how to process Resonating thoughts and organize my vault in Obsidian. For example, I can begin a Daily Practice of Capturing using a Fleeting Notes App such as Google Keep. Then, review the task list, and see what is vital for today. Afterward, I can review unprocessed Fleeting Notes and sort them, so I understand how to process the ideas that resonate with me. Finally, I can use my Quick Capture Workbench to sort through the items in the list below.
How to organize?
Order is vital
My Tasks Plugin
Waiting Buckets
Book notes started in red.
RainDrop.io
Pocket
ReadWise
The order restarted, but I think you see the waiting buckets.
My Projects
Most relevant
Deadline
My Areas
My Resources
My Archives
🥑 Mental Nourishment
For November, I had many thoughts that I chose to reflect on and create some plans. For example, What type of affirmations exist in categorization?
I want to create a collection of affirmations that can resurface quickly. If I have a collection type, I can make a resource and promptly go to that location, then pick out something that resonates with me and further reflect.
I remember feeling determined and making further reflections. For example, I think The Artist’s Way has some affirmations, and also, the long hand poems, if you will, from the Torah have verses for healing according to the category of affliction. I want to do similar.
Did I learn anything?
I need to build a higher-order categorization, which will require more research. In the end, the plan for the future is to search for where I can learn more about affirmation categorization to quickly locate potential candidates to use in situations that will benefit me.
🚿 Stream of Consciousness
I struggled with lack of sleep which caused me to make mistakes and not think things through. Then my health bill and walking for 30 mins after my feet had blisters on my way back from the hike. Furthermore, speaking to a friend about our meetup took a lot of work. I didn’t give him a direct message. Instead, I worked up to it because I felt I couldn’t be around him. Later on, I learned something was wrong with my Keto. I was eating too many carbs. I was spending too much time walking after poor planning on a hike.
Next time I’ll overcome it by:
I will go to bed around 9:30 pm.
I will push on and keep going during long hikes or start from a different location while hiking if I know time is tight.
How can I use Intuition to figure out what my body is saying and adjust?
Speaking to somebody directly, I need to ask them if they are okay hearing the direct vs. not. It would be better for me to see which friends are worth being around.
So above are some potential projects for the future. Also, special thanks to John Mavrick vaults on Gumroad, grateful for its ability to organize content. That’s the update. If you want to know how I became an artist, subscribe and follow my blog for more.
Below is an illustration from my trip to Monk Cloisters #FortTryonPark.
I use these CoDA daily tenth review questions for any time during your day as a way to check in with myself and see how well I’m doing. The questions came from suggestions during my Step 10 Study group. In honoring CoDA literature only, I removed non-CoDA approved references.
CoDA Daily Tenth
Am I getting enough sleep and rest?
Did I exercise today, take a walk, swim, or do any other self-care activities?
Am I eating a healthy diet?
Did I honor my feelings?
Am I
taking care of myself?
living my higher powers will?
practicing gratitude?
Did I do some form of prayer and or meditation?
Did I communicate in a healthy way today?
If I let my codependent behavior take over today, what was that codependent behavior?
New to CoDA? Below is a short clip from the organization.
We welcome you to Co-Dependents Anonymous, a program of recovery from codependence, where each of us may share our experience, strength, and hope in our efforts to find freedom where there has been bondage and peace where there has been turmoil in our relationships with others and ourselves.
