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My authenticity or uniqueness is in who I Am. All I need is myself. Then, I can find a balance in my interests and express how the other party crossed my boundaries. A coworker, Cedric, told me the meaning of “I,” and that nothing else can redefine my existence or worth.
Embracing Uniqueness: Finding Balance and Celebrating the Journey
Similarly, I want to be mine; nobody else can have me. Sometimes, I create the art. No three hands are ever alike. I desire to focus my creative flow on the 12 favorite problems. As I told myself, I could stand out by focusing on what was vital to me.
In CoDA, Promise Five speaks about recognizing and embracing the importance of uniqueness.
“I know a new love and acceptance of myself and others. I feel genuinely lovable, loving, and loved.”
Celebrate the Joy in the Journey: Recover with Color! A recommendation from the CoDA group. I haven’t tried it myself. However, I run an art Meetup and occasionally draw with them.
Story Time: Denial when I see a person racing behind me β¨
Following that great energy, I can come to know Promise Six and recognize others as equal to myself. Only after accepting myself can I do what is needed to make my energy vibe attractive, whether it’s a drawing artist date or a 23-minute walk near the Canal. Many times during the month, I find myself meditating in the evening or morning when I’m working from home. I am responsible for feeding my energy and finding the balance to keep me going. Otherwise, I will choose fear and denial patterns.
Some time ago, I saw a person racing behind me. I tried to go faster and felt a feeling of strength. I wanted to control the situation; I didn’t want them to beat me. In the past, it happened to me when people behind me were racing. I remember when I had a cyclist going fast on the boardwalk racing behind me. I decided to try to keep up by running like a crazy person, only to learn that I would fail.
Later, I learned that I was experiencing a trigger of not being good enough and stressing over my situation.Β I have difficulty identifying my feelings. In CoDA, that is the denial pattern. Of course, I can argue that it could be a control issue here, but I’m not sure which. I was running to get fit and somehow have clarity when all I needed was to stop and slow down.
The end is the beginning; it’s great to have you here. Feel free to leave any thoughts or realizations. Peace be with you. π
Occasionally, I come across gems in my favorite problem area. [[How can I meditate before acting]]. In particular, I would like to explore how I can [[Schedule time to mediate to keep the balance]].
Balancing Act Navigating Meditation and Distractions in Daily Life
To find balance, I must create a schedule to help me slow down and reflect on my thoughts. My goal is to meditate in the morning and evening. Similarly, the [[45-minute Meditation is required to reach my mind peacefully]]. I can mitigate the negative thoughts that affect me. I can meditate to slow them down for the evening to feel better for a moment. For example, when I eat mindfully, it takes the mind 20 minutes to register that I’m full or done eating. Likewise, it takes the mind 20 minutes to calm down to receive the wisdom.
Sometimes, patience comes in many forms. [[To wake up the whole body, I need to feel pain across the body]]. Ignoring the pain and allowing myself to listen and continue to note will give me wisdom. The practice will allow me to see what is in my mind. Then, I can answer more and be more attentive to the information around me.
Ultimately, I learned that I need to use my time wisely. In the future, I figured I would share my experience in writing so that, hopefully, others don’t fall into the endless trap of rewards.
Welcome to Meaningful Connection, where I share October resonating ideas, thoughts, and realizations for those who want to grow mindfully in 7 minutes. I will try to answer the following questions: let me know how I do. Meanwhile, see if you can find the answer.
β¨Thought-provoking questions
How can one differentiate between healthy ambition and greed while expanding?
What are some effective strategies for balancing personal growth with relationships?
In what ways can mindfulness practices contribute to finding balance while expanding?
How can one identify and overcome limiting beliefs that hinder growth and expansion?
What role does self-compassion play in balancing personal growth and self-care?
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MEANINGFUL CONNECTION
π What’s New?
Thinking about my recent activity, I wrote about CoDA Promise Nine because I’m all about self-care. Meanwhile, I discovered a few new ways to stay balanced while awake. The thought led me to keep an eye on how I want to live my life without telling others how they should live theirs. Ultimately, I’m glad to be back for this month’s meaningful connections as I leave you with a few final wishes to prep for the new month. With that, let’s dive into the resonance!
π What is Resonating?
During October, I had many inputs revolving around studying the 12 CoDA promises. Each set of promises has questions assigned to them. When I go through each, I love to reword the questions to get a better connection with my life and how CoDA relates to it. Of the 12, promise Nine caught my attention because I enjoyed the answers I gave in my notes. For reference, here is promise nine.
“Acknowledge that I am a unique and precious creation.”
I want to focus my life on the π Vye 12 Favorite Problems, for example,Β πΊ How can I find balance while wanting to expand or πΊ How can I meditate before acting? I use these questions to gather ideas to lead my life.
How do I treat myself in a way that is paved with loving-kindness?
I meditate in the morning and evening to preview my thoughts. Then, I can ask what is heavy on my soul, which begs me to show self-love. When my energy goes outward, I can catch myself looking at people, places, and objects. Then, I can trigger a new path called manifestation. After that, I try to recall my gratitude and blessings. If I start believing in stinking-thinking/monkey brain and catch myself, smile at the thought, and find a better way forward. It’s like a game, a treasure hunt. When I feel better, I can move to my body because π The body does its best to maintain balance. In the end, I need to tune in.
Why do I believe I was created?
Each time a thought enters my mind, I remember the following question. πΊ How can I find balance while having a desire to expand?Β For me, creation is π When my energy goes outward. My π Confidence is flowing, and then I know I exist. I need to be careful and start π Noticing when I’m addicted to overthinking. Sometimes, the thinking is fun, but it can be draining. Therefore, I need to be aware of π The balance of consideration. Meanwhile, π Slowing Down will get me to the Wisdom.
π» What’s Growing?
When October rolled over, I had several new experiences that added to my 12 favorite problems. To start, π Like Hugging a Red Balloon, Experience life and let go. I don’t want to hold on to anything in the Fleeting Notes.
Instead, check it against my π Vye 12 Favorite Problems and find a way to Stumble Upon the Idea as an Atomic Note. The idea led me to consider π ZettelKasten’s Depth is the Compass Thinking. In other words, I was making connections between ideas. For example, what is similar to the concept? Another, where can the thought lead to? Finally, that month made me consider π Everything I do tests me to be awake. Knowing that π When the suffering is processed, I can focus on happiness. Happiness is the test of life. Living is a test of being awake.
π₯ Mental Nourishment
Throughout October, I started focusing my thoughts on my 12 favorite problems. For example, π Live my life, don’t tell others how to. I wrote the idea because it connected to πΊ How can I find balance while wanting to expand? Building on the context, I told π€ Juliana Jul that I would like her to move and live with me in the United States. During this, I felt sad, strong, and concerned. As a result, I came up with two major focus points. π Don’t tell people what to do. In other words, I have my own life and don’t need to tell people to be part of it. If I want to π I need to build my friends in my interests. I shouldn’t tell them how to live their lives. Since I have common interests, it will be easier to be around them. Going to in-person events in my area or moving to a location where I can find my tribe is a healthy way to live.
Moreover, π I can improve my comfort with people by taking an Improv class. A coworker suggested Toastmastersβa bucket list event.
What did I learn?
Suffering will come. It will hurt my friend more than me.
My life would be better if another person lived with me. In a plus one form and not a need to form.
I go beyond my boundaries while feeling sadness because the person won’t act as I want.
What is the plan for the future?
The plan for the future when I’m stuck deciding if my thoughts are good in merit, perhaps I can π Focus on my blessings. In any case, I had many views; feel free to comment with your ideas. Otherwise, let’s keep on going to the stream of consciousness.
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πΏ Stream of Consciousness
You may have noticed that I skipped a month in the writing. My goal is to provide meaningful connections. I can reach my goal by reducing the effort of creating content. That led me to π stop treating all thoughts as knowledge instead become a π Smart Collector of information. A better way would be to Stumble Upon the Idea as an Atomic Note. Also, the writing process felt boring and annoying. I hate to force myself to write. Writing my thoughts down with greater meaning allowed me to grow as a person and come to the table thrilled to put together an outline.
Well, that’s it for Oct; feel free to share your ideas or if you have something on your soul. If you want to know how I became an artist, subscribe and follow my blog for more.
Welcome to meaningful connection, where I share March resonating ideas, thoughts, and realizations.
Meaningful Connection
π What’s New?
A significant departure from my notes, I decided to pause on the reviews and focus my energy on what’s resonating, feelings, and thoughts. I want to continue refining my discoveries to build meaningful connections with the content I consume. I made the subconscious choice because I needed to do something more vital with the content. Moreso, it took a lot of copy-pasting and tweaking queries throughout the week to get my monthly review together. After that, I plan to revisit the thoughts and morning pages. In addition, I’m practicing the CE 5 Protocol and Healing Code, which calms my soul and provides growth.
I listened to Mary and Ken talk in CoDA UK for steps 8 and 9 (https://codauk.org/ken-and-mary-2019/). I remember being avoidant with my family and letting my authority figure of fear control me. Then the discovery about my childhood interaction with others left me wondering: What do amends look like for me? Because for the longest time, I had blamed the outside world for my feelings. It has left me seeking balance and wisdom. I will find balance through continuously journaling and reflecting on the areas of my interest. In particular, it’s good for me to monitor my physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual health.
Forgetting to pray and pause is a common theme in my life. I quickly get excited about cooking. When I cook and try to improve my health, I spend copious hours understanding and implementing ideas. Where is the pause button? Mary and Ken discuss the concept of chasing for an answer. Am I in a place to hear the truth? For much of my life, I shut those thoughts off subconsciously and feared the reality of the situation. In CoDA, its a progress and not perfection. I found a small silver lining, praying and hanging signs to remind me to pause. It’s okay not to know myself at the very moment and to be lost. For now, I will find myself soon. It is remembering that I cannot always let fear be my authority figure.
Fear is a figure that blows through my boundaries, not a loving Higher Power who wants the best for me. I could skip filling my plate with complete nutrition or leave a few dishes in the sink. Overall, the problem I aim to solve is moving from a position of weakness to a more balanced lifestyle. Meanwhile, I know I cannot control and blame others but improve myself.
π» What’s Growing?
For the month, I will choose something that is sprouting and needs to be elaborated upon further. The most exciting thing to guide the mind will be questions that require complex answers. Questions have many answers too. Some time ago, I started collecting my top 12 favorite problems to find solutions. It will guide me to search for information instead of mindlessly highlighting everything I see on the interwebs. Feynman coined the idea to chip away at challenging issues in life.
The plan is to continue questioning the content I consume and testing it against the question. The problems that come from life very well reflect my core values. For example, if I want to expand my ability to show kindness to others, I must ask the following question. How can I find balance while having the desire to grow? Which lead me to CoDA step 4 and 5. I must keep an inventory of my actions toward others and promptly admit when I’m wrong so I can reflect and grow as a human being to society.
π₯ Mental Nourishment
Throughout March, I had many thoughts that differed from my objective notes. However, most of the time, the feeling is inspired. I plan to find a better way to resurface those feelings in my notes, but I’m going based on what I can dig out by modified time.
Speaking to my friend about dating, he made a connection to resumes. The profile is like a highlight of the best version of myself. After I meet the person, I can further elaborate on my vulnerability, weakness, and plans for the future. He mentioned that it is essential to maintain my anonymity for purposes of equality. Until I know them and they are “safe” to share with, I might want to keep parts of me hidden.
For example, perhaps it wouldn’t be a good idea to share my past trauma. π€·π»ββοΈ I’m proud of my journey personally, but I’ve noticed certain words trigger a misunderstanding (like codependent), so I leave them out. Further into the future, my grandmother told me that couples rub off each other over a while and learn what love entails. In other words, I can understand love when I sense the inner suffering of my better half.
I plan to validate my life with what I love to do to attract the correct type of energy.
πΏ Stream of Consciousness
As March passed, I started doing fewer daily, weekly, and monthly reviews. My therapist suggests I focus my energy only on gratitude and feeling my feelings. I decided to change because I felt overwhelmed with my desire to cook in the keto lifestyle. Since my weekends include art, shopping, and cooking, I want to involve myself spiritually and take more vacations during the week, so my life goes smoother.
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Welcome to meaningful connection, where I share February’s resonating ideas, thoughts, and realizations.
π What’s New?
I’m making progress with journaling and keeping an eye on my life. Meanwhile, I’m working primarily on Acts SharePoint. During work hours, I found myself in drama with a coworker and me. Then I visited the dentist to find out I was doing an excellent job with my teeth minus the grinding.
Meanwhile, I started stepping back on hosting every weekend. I then managed to hang out at the Marsh with a friend. Then I learned about the green veggies and cheese benefits from kidney stones.
During February, I had many personal achievements. I was starting with the ability to defer my frustration with a coworker while successfully pausing to pray for guidance so I could seek happiness from within. Further, I tried to understand the pricing for hospitality on care.com and picked out a few candidates. Another coworker surprised me and said he noticed many positive changes due to my new keto lifestyle. It made me feel good because proving through my actions is the best way to a living success. Finally, I could draw a card for grandpa with limited time on his birthday.
More importantly, my career growth had a few exciting twists and turns. In the jQuery world, I quickly completed promises and synced ajax calls despite others saying it would take too long. While things got dicey at times, I would pause to allow some input from our team and reserve speaking. That allowed me to understand the problem and eventually come to a solution. Finally, I always prepare notes at work for the coming days. That allowed me to improve my knowledge transfer to my boss progressively.
π What is resonating?
During February, I chose something that I rated above four and now is in my life. Because of such quality, I decided how to use the healing code. The idea is to adjust the negative or positive energies surrounding me. I heal by using truth statements as affirmations to target my flaws or obstacles that prevent me from limiting beliefs that hold me from my potential. The process takes around 15 mins, and the target is a single issue at a time. I will use different hand positions during the event and read a statement about what appears true. The goal is to create reflection and unearth the hidden gem that could move me to a new level of understanding. Below is an example of a true statement that I like to use:
Perhaps I Am Lovable Just the Way That I Am
What is yours?
π» What’s Growing?
For February, I will choose something that is sprouting and needs to be elaborated upon further. The spout that comes to mind is grounding meditation because it’s a document I improve every Wed and Saturday at the Art Meetup. Now and then, when I perform the meditation, I add or remove lines that open our hearts to drawing out our inspiration. Moreover, I like to reflect on the ropes because of the deep inspiration. For example, “what’s heavy on our soul as we come back” speaks of my long day at work or the pain of not accomplishing my goal of owning property in Manhattan. That thought is essential, and I will not give it less priority. However, I must draw and find a way to use that negative energy and channel it through my breath. Moreso, I always have a choice to reflect and find happiness.
π₯ Mental Nourishment
Throughout February, I had many thoughts different from the objective Zettelkasten notes. While writing the mental nourishment section, I realized I could use my thought notes as a placeholder for status, which would help me choose letters from my thought area. The thought that comes to mind is a question.
What is the difference between trust and being comfortable with somebody? I won’t use the names for anonymity, and here comes the context. In my mind, I feel comfortable when the other person doesn’t expect happiness from me. If I get a happy feeling from the person and they push me to be better in a way that I feel I’m ready for, then I build comfort. Trust is like someone lying to me and using me for other agendas. Comfort me opening up at a reasonable rate, and another person is okay with it. I remember feeling fear because I tend to push people away when I say something wrong. Also, I can apologize and try to understand through reflection.
What did I learn? Both words are different, and comfort is a higher-level word. Thus, I can only be comfortable once I trust the other person. Therefore relationships require more time to develop.
πΏ Stream of Consciousness
Moving near the end, I like to grab a summary of the month or some obstacles I faced. For February, I cooked every weekend. First, I needed to revisit my blessing, so I find balance. My most vital lesson is the feeling of frustration Moving between tasks too quickly, and not finding a chance to go inward. I noticed I got burned a lot because I’m either not paying attention to my body or over-invest in my work. My goal for next month is to focus on internal happiness and not on others around me. Therefore, I must continue healing code and going to bed early.
More or less, I struggled with keeping myself in balance and giving myself an actual deadline with so many gaps in knowledge to complete the NFT drawings. Next time I’ll overcome it by planning to draw days and how I can finish something simple. Instead, I could do an abstract piece to build my confidence and succeed with my balance.
π Walking Away with the roses
Well, that’s the month of February. I added a new menu called Give and Coach, so feel free to look around and share what’s on your soul.
Welcome to #meaningful #connection, where I share #resonating ideas, thoughts, and realizations from my month of January.
π What’s New?
My biggest accomplishment for the month was completing holiday cards for my family. I started drawing on 2022-11-24 and finished it a week later than the plan. I hand-drew eight different cards. The goal was to make quick sketches and see what I liked on the internet before putting them together. Then create text in various languages and sign each card. Then I made a budget of 160 dollars to split among each card. The best part about doing the cards was the live streaming on Twitch because it made it super fun and gave a way to mediate and take breaks while illustrating. A single most exciting discovery was when creating the cards, don’t make the cards out to a particular person. Instead, let the creative process be fun and open. Then, in the end, I started discovering who to gift.
My most significant career achievement was when I started creating a map of content for my projects at work. I didn’t use Obsidian because, at work, we use OneNote, so I decided to modal my notebook using the PARA method. Then it was alright to create the idea of linking my thinking.
I should pause and pray during the Imaginative Illustrator events. In other words, I can seek balance in everything I do. So, I decided to tear off my notes from my monitor except for the word pray.
Sometimes I have a vision of my encounters, which makes me upset. After speaking to my mom and therapist, they suggested I reframe the picture and tell it I’m not afraid. Then perhaps it will decrease its hold on my life.
π What is resonating?
During January, I chose something that I rated above four and now is in my life. With that in mind, I got the Om Mani Padme Hum the true meaning. It’s a YouTube video that got many views and ran about one minute and 25 seconds. The author left a summary for us: Aum is the body, speech, and mind. It’s also the opening to the four syllablesβimpure practitioner. The budda is pure, a practice to Buddhahood’s development path. An intro to the meaning of the words.
After going through the initial dive, I left with more questions than answers. In other words, I had to do deep reflection to discover the truth. Even if the explanation was clear, the chant was meaningless unless I knew the real reason for each word. What’s more, even if I knew the reason, it wasn’t enough to free myself of the burden of learning it. I needed a way to relate it to my personal life to find a profound connection.
While dating an Indonesian woman, I discovered the true meaning of Infinite Altruism. I had to try to understand the person’s suffering before loving them. Even after our breakup, I tried to make sense of it. Letting go of something with such beauty was not easy, even if I loved her. Both of us were suffering from trust issues and weren’t ready to give up our past to be bold together.
Therefore, as I pass through Mani, I reflect on my Padme as it grows through the mock of the earth into something clean and beautiful. As time goes by, every day reveals my stuck places, but I have the option first to acknowledge that it happened, each event has internal beauty, and I can always gain something even if I have to give it up. In the end, finding a beginning, it’s a balance that I must seek, and the process continues.
Given the opportunity, I will continue to remind myself it’s about progress and not perfection.
For January, I will choose some sprouting things that need to be elaborated upon further. Of such caliber, I need to hire a personal cook helper. I’m looking for a helper to prepare my meals because it will speed things up regarding my stress level. Also, allow me to learn faster. In other words, the cook and I will work together to make the meals.
Meanwhile, I can learn a few tricks, which lead me to do a google search and eventually to care.com. I don’t know much about hospitality service, but I must explore it to live a balanced life. In turn, the action will promote my cooking and improve my health. What’s more, it is like a mental massage because I will be investing in life.
Next on my list, balance core value is growing in the number of connections in my daily life. I have noticed a desire to expand and prove myself. For example, I get triggered when I make a mistake. Then I completely forget about my body. As the new year started, I accumulated numerous links to gain insight into seeking balance. For example, during my relationship with my love, I came across a question: How do I want to be treated? I came to know that I needed to be a glass half empty before fear sets into my response. While working with my therapist, I’m more impulsive when I don’t meet my needs, so I need to seek balance in everything I do. As such, reflection and pausing are dear to me.
Therefore, to be treated respectfully, I must take care of myself and seek my internal happiness.
π₯ Mental Nourishment
As January moved beyond our reach, I had many thoughts that differed from the more traditional object bullets. Some time ago, I decided to focus on feeling content because those are visited every morning or if I get triggered. Of such interest, the happy feeling has been at an all-time high compared to others. The feeling is described as pleasure or contentment, while I use it as an adjective.
While listening to Alexa, a song titled “A Clear Night” by Jeff Pearce got me into a feeling of happiness and sadness. It took me back to when I skied with my ex and had an opportunity to explore the world outside of New York. As a result, I learned I need to travel more with friends and build new memories.
Travel more on my own to find a unique experience. Therefore, maybe I can plan to travel to Calgary or Colorado to create something great.
πΏ Stream of Consciousness
Moving near the end, I like to grab a summary of the month or some obstacles I faced. I drew holiday cards for the family while live streaming Twitch. I met with Tyler Tseng, Brian Relph, Soul Coach, and Mark Haskins and had an art meetup. Meanwhile, I visit Chinatown throughout the week. Mostly regular days at DCAS. On weekends, I went shopping, cooked, did an art meetup, and sometimes did no bible study.
Interestingly, I was obsessing over the Bluetooth issue. I focused on the Acts project and ski planning with Edi at work. Sometimes, I felt the urge to defend the Act’s existing system to try to get it to work, which led to good and bad days because I did things without balance.
I struggled with balance and keeping an eye on it, especially with my recent breakup. I’m spending only a little time on social media to prove I’m worth it. Next time I will keep doing the healing code. Something may come of it.
Muse
Friend leaving Maintains
Members
Running instances
Schedule
Recruiting
Reputation
Why should somebody come here?
Keeping people happy
Accept the fact of people leaving
Back in the day when I was playing Ruins of Magic, I would imagine a routine that would become common out most MMO ( A massively multiplayer online game) life. The items I mentioned above are things you would be responsible for while being in a small guild. I would point to reputation because it’s something that branches off to recruiting and members. Guild mates must keep it professional and be polite. Many of my friends were older folks who had long stressful days, who worked and then came on to play the game. Nobody is looking for drama and hate.
The key was not to think about these items as a task or job, but to tie in a fun factor and have some sort of reward system. Running instances (bosses areas and quests) for people who are doing well with their ranks. Giving out equipment and money to guild mates. Pointing out helpful hints and solutions to issues. Ruins of Magic had many guilds that were able to maintain this, but if you were a smaller guild, then your resources were strained and it was hard to maintain this effort. Ultimately, a lot of people found themselves moving to other growing games.
A guild master has to be able to answer the question about why this guild and not some other one. Bigger guilds mostly state facts clearly about the environment and the community.
An example of a recruiting message in Runes of Magic:
Our guild FreeDestiny is Recruiting players lvls 30-77.(If your lvl 1-29 we will inv if your active in the game)
We have siege war every night and run dungeons everyday.
We have Vent. nice people they will answer any questions you might have
Run Goblin Games Every Day.
If your Interested Msg “karinol”,”korilyn”,”Dorial”,”Ulamog” if all else fails msg “Ruskie” he’s on all night.
he on from 10 am – 10 pm EST
If you’re wondering if were a Nooby guild,
Majority of our guild are/is lvl 50-77 and we have over 120 members
I wouldn’t recommend staying to long in games like Runes of Magic and I would try not to get too attached to any guild. However, I understand that it is hard to play against friends and not helping them.